Feeling the Change

Do you know what I mean, when you feel a major change coming?

I have been struggling with getting my exercise program back on track, and reconciling my relationship with food. I can see myself running, I can see myself strength training, and yet, I don't follow through.

Today I realized that Mason is already a sugar addict! I'm not surprised, he loves candy and it's the be-all end-all of making your kid happy. It's the reward, the bribe, the treat, the celebration, the thing that makes whatever's bad good again, it's nearly everything! After Mason's third treat before 10 AM (one he snuck, one he found leftover in the car, and one was a freebie at a cash register), I about pulled my hair out, screaming inside my head, STOP! NO MORE CRAP FOOD!

I managed to keep my cool, but informed Mason we were going on a sugar/crap food diet. "What's a diet?" Mason asked. My reply was honest, "It's the way people eat. It can be a good, healthy diet or it can be a poor diet of crap food." "Oh, good!" Mason said, "We can eat sugar and crap food all the time!" Shit! I did that wrong. I thought. I went on to burst his bubble and let him know we were actually switching to a good diet, without sugar and crap food. "Ohhh, I want to do the other diet, the sugar diet."

Tough love. When Dave got home tonight I informed him of my plans. He got right on board! What a relief! It's so much easier when we're all on the same page. So today, I weighed 174 and I have had an excellent food day. Dave also exercised extreme will power when he got to work to find cake, cheesecake, pie, cookies, and more. I'm proud of him.

It seems we are feeling the winds of change blowing together, not unusual, Dave and I do that a lot! I'll keep you posted.